I am going through a sort of reboot phase, feeling low on myself and looking for answers, which I have found through personal introspection the past couple weeks.

I admit to being overly obsessed to win. Overly obsessed to sell. Overly obsessed to matter. I’ve learned what that obsession can do to an author, particularly when I was called an “A-lister” music, film and horror journalist, trying to transfer that success into my fiction. Last night, I had a meeting with brothers from my old community who reminded me I do matter, my work is wanted and to be fostered, and damn, is that sobering. I’ve been chasing like a rabid mongrel what I want most in life, coming to the realization it’s time to step back, breathe, connect and reconnect and develop.

Thank you to all my friends, old and new, for your support, adds, likes and comments. I look forward to getting know you better and hopefully you with me. Onwards and upwards, every day, just at a more logical, methodic pace. Cheers

–Ray Van Horn, Jr.