
Gratitude check, 2025. There was a point earlier in the year where I hit such a rut to my self-esteem that I didn’t feel like myself. Everyone here knows I preach positivity, confidence, drive and wherewithal. THAT’s the Ray I always want people to see. Upbeat, chill, intrinsically driven, sometimes goofy and grinding in forward motion. That was an uncomfortably atypical slog through the doldrums we all face and it reminded me that, I like anyone else, am simply human. The defeats and every other overwhelming thing back then were enough to send me into a private hell where I needed to kick my own ass before my wife did likewise.
I’m grateful for the 180 reversal this year has brought me. I had so many turndowns and dead air blasts it felt like a collective trouncing. Then, as my wife gave me an Adrian Balboa-styled reality check, good things began to happen. A story accepted. Bringing in the Creeps coming out. Hot book sales at signing events. It was all the catalyst to my writing explosion September into October.
I spiked my networking, I gathered new friends into my tribe, which was already infantry sized. This is how I built a large rep in the music and film industries as a writer. As it did back then, things are happening. They’re building. I take so many pictures out there, especially with people, not because I’m trying to be an egomaniac nor a star-effer, but because a wise woman (my mother) said to me once that material things are nice, but pictures are your real treasure. An ongoing document of who you were, who are you are, the people you’ve loved and who make your life worth living. People who take the time to pose with you and share their essence for a sliver of time that it means everything down the road.
Yeah, I’m still taking a few turndowns, but my victories are piling of late, and I feel so damned good about myself and my friends and loved ones who keep my pulse throbbing. The wins are outnumbering the losses, and I have a handful of incredible news announcements to make for 2026 that I must wait until I’m at liberty to do so. I will have one biggie to share this coming Sunday, and I promise you’re gonna dig it.
I have my winter writing itinerary set with four new projects, one I’m about to wrap on this week. I already have the future release of October Rust to look forward to and I only hope to keep building upon this thing which is finally growing.
As ever, I’m grateful to my wife, TJ. She is my ultimate desire and my ferocious partner. The love she has shown me and my son is something you can’t appreciate unless you’re living it. Boyo is turning into such a good person after all the turmoil we sucked up for years. My stepkids are simply the best. What I lost in the way of friends and even family from my former life has been tripled and steered to me through TJ. For those of you who turned on me, I forgive but never forget you. Take that as you will. For those whom I may have hurt, I can only ask for your forgiveness.
Thank you especially to my brothers at The Metal Hall of Fame for picking me up and throwing a welcoming arm around my shoulder when the California no’s from an industry I served long and hard were just too much for even me to digest.
I thank my employers for giving me the means to survive and likewise, endorse a sense of brotherhood. You haven’t lived until you’ve been to an orthodox Jewish wedding, much less a bar mitzvah and bat mitzvah and I’ve been privileged to have been to all three. Shalom, my friends.
Thank you, all, for supporting my work, for being there when I need a voice or a set of eyes to lift my cause. Thank you to my expanding Substack family, my subscribers and followers. My newsletter is starting to boom. Thank you, HWA and MWA for advancing my mission by sharing my news, adding me to signing events, for connecting me to so many writers I can call friends. I especially appreciate getting my Moving Night piece accepted by the HWA. What a boost when it was greatly needed.
Thank you to the divine, who answer me, EVERY SINGLE TIME I call out or give my devotions.
So that’s enough of that malarkey. Over at Substack, I dropped a new post last night you may dig, where I chose 12 songs I’m grateful for. They’re mixed between punk, metal, rock and soul and a little bit of film scoring. Check it out using the link in the comments and hit a subscribe while you’re at it, if you please.
A wonderful Thanksgiving to you, my friends!
–Ray Van Horn, Jr.





































